There was a phase of my life when I was miserably low on confidence. Anything I did turned to dust. I was rejected by jobs, rejected by someone I was stuck up with all through my childhood, my grades fell & I lost myself.
It was an abyss of despondence, unhappiness with myself & constant dependence on others – I was anchoring on others & survived on crutches.
I was on an self-imposed exile, lonely & I hated company, I was angry, bitter & filled with a hateful heart. I shut myself out to opportunities & suffered from huge performance anxiety.
When fear grips you, everything fails you. When the heart is calm, sorted & confident internally, everything falls into place. I could not attract this calm nor could I get in touch with myself.
Finally, after years of adversity & low self-esteem, I figured how to stop the chatter & control my mind, I moved ‘inward’. I learnt to love myself by looking within.
- Rejections & losses are good, they change our internal compass
- The trick is to change our narratives & ruthlessly edit what we feed ourselves
- Be very mindful of your inner chatter, it defines your life
What do you feed yourself?